Anxieties of a Freshly Minted Horary Astrologer

I don’t know what kind of win/loss record to expect practicing horary astrology in the field, and I know that anything meaningfully better than chance will be satisfying, but it’s pretty weird to be putting my faith to the test like this.

I guess the idea is that it will harden whatever’s left of my practice after a while into something I KNOW, and that sounds pretty satisfying whichever way it goes.

It’s just strange to feel so much doubt about something I have invested in so much.

The kinds of things I’d expect an experienced horary astrologer to have that I don’t are principles — or at least INSTINCTS — about which questions to take, which charts to throw out, what other omens to listen for about whether or when or for whom to cast charts, what sorts of spiritual preparations to take, what to do next after a judgment is wrong.

I can only get these things by practicing.

But I still have this fear of becoming demoralized.

I initially got interested in horary because of philosophical skepticism about the radicality of “origin charts” (i.e. including nativities), and I very deeply no longer feel that.

If anything, now I feel like the built-in radicality of a chart that’s “of something” — rather than a katarche only connected to quesited events by pure intentionality — enables far more intricate astrology. Which I guess feels like something to fall back on.

Horary is so VULNERABLE.

And, like, good. But, ouch.

The thing is…

IF it works…

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