Ode to Hawk

This is an ode to Hawk, my teacher and dear friend, without whom I would not be where I am.

Hawk and I met on Twitter. I was in a scene of people comparing notes on lineage and spiritual practice that was sort of like the scene around an open-source software project, except we didn’t really know or understand what we were working on. Hawk was in a scene where the revival of traditional Hellenistic astrology was taking place, but some practitioners understood that spiritual practice was integral to this effort, and some did not. Hawk was one of those who did. I imagine that’s how it happened on their side.

On my side, I was trying to incorporate my lifelong relationship to the sky into my body. I needed to understand the anatomy of the sky body. Sadalsvvd was there; he opened the book for me. I started reading. I realized that I would never be initiated into these mysteries without a teacher, as is the sacred way in my lineages, and I said so aloud. Hawk was drawn in by this post and messaged me privately. So began my formal studies in astrology.

Astrology is not what I learned from Hawk, though; it’s the way I learned what I learned. What Hawk taught me is how we are interrelated bodies within vaster and vaster bodies, and how we all move together, and what happens to the Divine Body as we move.

How exactly we studied this is an occult matter. You know, a secret. Hawk and I were both born under Leo Moons; we can’t help but show you who we are. But we’re also both children of Saturn; who we are is simply a limitation on who we all are. It would show you nothing to show you what we did together.

This is because Hawk is a guide. To go anywhere with Hawk is to go somewhere you’ve never been before and may not even be able to get back to without them. But going there with them teaches you how they get places. It teaches you how to go. That is another way of saying what I learned with Hawk.

Hawk is realizing the dream. They are a diviner and mystic, a writer and multimedia creator, who is finding material support from many people for this work, making their way in the world this way. This is something I always felt called to be, as well, and even though I’ve been writing online since 2003, I never quite figured out the way home. Until I met Hawk, and they pointed me home. Now I am there, and you are there with me, and I am there with you. And we all have such a home where everyone is at home with us, and we with them. Hawk is a guide to the way home.

This is fortunate because now Hawk’s guidance is a formal program in which you can take part. Walking by Lamplight is a one-on-one seven-month engagement with Hawk as a mentor, like the one I did, and some of my favorite practitioners have gone through it. People like Ash, and enantiomer, and Em. It’s a scene of its own now, where we are all practicing the movement of the Divine Body at all scales together, learning by feeling each other’s movements and trying them when it feels aligned. If you feel yourself beginning to move in this direction right now, I encourage you to go.

Homage to the teacher. Homage to the students. Homage to the classroom, which is this life.